I was sitting here thinking about how fear manifested itself in my life as a child.
I can remember one time in particular when I was standing on at the bus stop, across the street from my house, with my RainbowBright backpack on waiting to be ferried off to my first day of kindergarten.
Thinking back now, I must have been asked if I thought I would be alright riding the bus that day and I must have said yes, but when the bus came and the door opened I looked up at the big steel teeth of the school bus steps and was terrified. I stood there frozen as each kid got on the bus until only I remained, fearfully staring at the steps.
Then the driver asked me if I was going to get on.
I remember how afraid I was and with no shame or upset, shook my head; no way. With a shrug and a shake of the head the bus pulled the door closed and went on with her day.
Moments later, my mom came out of the house after seeing the bus leave and me still standing there.
On the drive to school, she asked me what happened and all I could say was that I was sorry. I told her how afraid I had been of the steps on the bus though she seemed less interested and more frustrated.
I assured her that it wouldn’t happen again.
But the next day the bus came and left and I was still standing on the sidewalk, again.
I was just plain scared and unable to overcome it on my own. Not surprisingly, my mom was really disappointed this time and was a little more than frustrated on the drive to school.
I had realized that I needed her help, and now I had to admit.
I asked her to come with me to the bus stop the next day and she did.
How many days she held my hand and watched me get on to the bus, I do not remember but a few days later something happened.
Something inside me had changed. I realized the steps just weren't that terrifying anymore, I had climbed them enough I guess. Then the next realization was that I no longer needed my mom to come to the bus stop with me in the morning. I wanted to do it my self.
Only then, instead of the fear of climbing the steps, there was sadness and deeper fear of having to say that I didn’t need my mom's help anymore. But how would she know that I just meant I didn't need her for this. I was terribly upset that she would think I meant I didn't need her anymore at all, which was absolutely not the case.
For what seemed like days, but was likely only hours, I pondered how I would tell her this truth I had discovered for myself. How to say it so it wouldn’t hurt her feelings
After mustering up the courage then finding the right moment I said, as softly as I could, “Mom, I don’t need you to come to the bus stop with me anymore, I think I can do it myself now.”
As it turned, out my mom wasn’t upset at all and now from a parent’s perspective, I can see how it was probably a relief for her.
In both cases, I had no logical reason to fear yet it was so real and present for me then. The teeth of the bus were not going to shred my little legs nor would I trip off the curb only to have metal-toothed steps break my fall.
My mom understood that I loved her and needed her. I just didn't need my hand held anymore.
Now as an adult, I seek out those razor sharp steps in life that I may need a little hand holding to get up and over. Friends and family helps us to stay balanced and keep us strong in the face of things that seem overwhelming to overcome. Sometimes we need a little help from others to let go of the fears we have and the truths they might reveal.
After a while, you will realize you are strong enough now, to do what needs to be done on your own. But instead of fearing what your friends will say, bless them with heartfelt gratitude for being there when you needed them most.
Then be strong and continue climb.
Friday, September 24, 2010
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Toward Greatness
There isnt enough time in the day for being swayed
toward the goal
of finding that thing
that means nothing to you
for there are so many things
to choose
to spend your time with
enjoying time with
being present with
be patient in allowing time for those things
saving the frustration for lack of time
on things you care not for
to drift from you
letting the reigns fall
simply stepping away silently
toward greatness
(c) Brandyrox 2010
toward the goal
of finding that thing
that means nothing to you
for there are so many things
to choose
to spend your time with
enjoying time with
being present with
be patient in allowing time for those things
saving the frustration for lack of time
on things you care not for
to drift from you
letting the reigns fall
simply stepping away silently
toward greatness
(c) Brandyrox 2010
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Spirit Guides or devils?
I have heard recently that there are people who believe that any entity (dis-incarnate) who speaks to a human should be considered a devil. If one imagines a spirit guide, they are to assume they are "from the devil".
I find logic and my heart in disagreement with that idea.
1. All that is is All that is. We are all the same in that we are all expressions of the One infinite creator, or Christ consciousness. We are in fact all the "Sons of God". Incarnate or not, we are all that is and that is divine.
2. Duality is human. As humans we have decided to see energy as split into two main buckets: negative and positive. They are in fact the same energy. As I understand it, positive energy is the radiation of life-force energy for all self's which can also be called love. Negative energy is the pulling into itself for the self. Negative energy could be visualized as a black hole, sucking everything and anything into itself. Whereas positive energy is likened to a star, radiating love and light. A black hole is not bad or evil and a star is not good or love. They both are what they are and serve the functions they do for the same reason. They too are expressions of the one infinite creator. Both sides. There is a time for giving and a time for receiving. Both are just as valid, just as necessary and both are just as pure in the eyes of the creator.
Having said all that, still we might look around our world and perceive things that we would not want to experience and so we might label those things as "bad" or look out unto the world and see things we might want to experience label those things as "good". This is localized judgement and nothing more. Opinion. Others may share that opinion but it makes it no more or less real than any other form of judgement.
This idea that there are devils running around in the non physical is as ridiculous an idea that there are leprechauns causing all the mischief in your life.
I say to you that everything that happens in your life is because you willed it to be so. Everything you experience in your life is an extension of that same great force you can see inside a tree or flower, the same light behind the eyes in another person, the same energy you may choose to connect with in the other realms of understanding and awareness.
The bible instructs us to call upon the name Jesus Christ, though that was not the name of the man we think we know who lived so many years ago. When he walked the earth they did not call him Jesus, it was Jehoshua, from the name Jehovah, which in that time was the name they called the one infinite creator. Humans are the son of the creator, made in the image of the creator and imbued with the talents and gift of the creator.
Therefore, the only being to "fear" is yourself. The world you perceive with your physical eyes is only a reflection of the reality inside your self. If there is great turmoil within you there must be turmoil around you. If there is peace and kindness inside you, there will be peace and kindness around you.
What you pay attention to manifests in reality. What you think, feel and say has an impact on the matter around you. You think, feel and speak matter into form long before you are able to hold it in your hand or manifest it into your life.
In simple terms, let us say you go to the car dealership and by a new car. It is a model you have never noticed before. It is likely that from that moment onward you will notice that car everywhere. Not because they didn't exist before you noticed, only that you were not aware of them prior to that. They were not a focus for you. You did not have them "on your radar".
The same is true with all things in life. Seek and ye shall find. Knock and the door will be opened to you. You must look for what you are seeking to find it. If you are looking for a guide in spirit form to communicate with you then you will find it. If you are looking for that guide to be a "devil" then that is what you will find.
Personally, I choose to be open to the universe, guided by spirit within me, that is also all that is. Therefore anything that I observe from my perspective is a mirror of my own thoughts, feeling and words.
The strongest, wisest and most loving of beings are around you when you know it not. Angels walk among you every moment of every day whether you choose to pay attention to them or not. Keep your eye on the highest of high, your heart set to love and your mind set to kindness, wisdom and truth and you will never be lead astray. Where there is fear, a lesson is likely to near. For fear is like a virus. Luckily, so is Love.
Peace be with you always
love and light
brandyrox and friends.
I find logic and my heart in disagreement with that idea.
1. All that is is All that is. We are all the same in that we are all expressions of the One infinite creator, or Christ consciousness. We are in fact all the "Sons of God". Incarnate or not, we are all that is and that is divine.
2. Duality is human. As humans we have decided to see energy as split into two main buckets: negative and positive. They are in fact the same energy. As I understand it, positive energy is the radiation of life-force energy for all self's which can also be called love. Negative energy is the pulling into itself for the self. Negative energy could be visualized as a black hole, sucking everything and anything into itself. Whereas positive energy is likened to a star, radiating love and light. A black hole is not bad or evil and a star is not good or love. They both are what they are and serve the functions they do for the same reason. They too are expressions of the one infinite creator. Both sides. There is a time for giving and a time for receiving. Both are just as valid, just as necessary and both are just as pure in the eyes of the creator.
Having said all that, still we might look around our world and perceive things that we would not want to experience and so we might label those things as "bad" or look out unto the world and see things we might want to experience label those things as "good". This is localized judgement and nothing more. Opinion. Others may share that opinion but it makes it no more or less real than any other form of judgement.
This idea that there are devils running around in the non physical is as ridiculous an idea that there are leprechauns causing all the mischief in your life.
I say to you that everything that happens in your life is because you willed it to be so. Everything you experience in your life is an extension of that same great force you can see inside a tree or flower, the same light behind the eyes in another person, the same energy you may choose to connect with in the other realms of understanding and awareness.
The bible instructs us to call upon the name Jesus Christ, though that was not the name of the man we think we know who lived so many years ago. When he walked the earth they did not call him Jesus, it was Jehoshua, from the name Jehovah, which in that time was the name they called the one infinite creator. Humans are the son of the creator, made in the image of the creator and imbued with the talents and gift of the creator.
Therefore, the only being to "fear" is yourself. The world you perceive with your physical eyes is only a reflection of the reality inside your self. If there is great turmoil within you there must be turmoil around you. If there is peace and kindness inside you, there will be peace and kindness around you.
What you pay attention to manifests in reality. What you think, feel and say has an impact on the matter around you. You think, feel and speak matter into form long before you are able to hold it in your hand or manifest it into your life.
In simple terms, let us say you go to the car dealership and by a new car. It is a model you have never noticed before. It is likely that from that moment onward you will notice that car everywhere. Not because they didn't exist before you noticed, only that you were not aware of them prior to that. They were not a focus for you. You did not have them "on your radar".
The same is true with all things in life. Seek and ye shall find. Knock and the door will be opened to you. You must look for what you are seeking to find it. If you are looking for a guide in spirit form to communicate with you then you will find it. If you are looking for that guide to be a "devil" then that is what you will find.
Personally, I choose to be open to the universe, guided by spirit within me, that is also all that is. Therefore anything that I observe from my perspective is a mirror of my own thoughts, feeling and words.
The strongest, wisest and most loving of beings are around you when you know it not. Angels walk among you every moment of every day whether you choose to pay attention to them or not. Keep your eye on the highest of high, your heart set to love and your mind set to kindness, wisdom and truth and you will never be lead astray. Where there is fear, a lesson is likely to near. For fear is like a virus. Luckily, so is Love.
Peace be with you always
love and light
brandyrox and friends.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
The closest dimensions
Describe, exactly what you perceive when you are "lost in thought". What exactly does the rest of the world look like? When you are lost in a show on TV or lost in the story you are reading, where are you?
Sometimes we can be so wrapped up in thought that the world is spinning all around us and we miss everything. Sometimes we can be stuck in these dimensions of thought for a very long time. We perceive our trips to be instantaneous, but when you are in the thought, like a dream time begins to loose its power. This is demonstrated in movies all the time via sappy montage just before the couples reunite.
Some words trigger the leap, some people find it relaxing an learn to induce it, others have no control or awareness that anything going on at all since that is how the life experience has always been, like not seeing the forest while looking at a single tree.
We trip, stumble into an old memory that pulls us into an old pattern of thinking and then the old feelings begin to rush back and before you know it you're back in a dream of your past, perhaps slightly faded or sun bleached. While you are observing/experiencing this memory you are, for all intensive purposes, in another dimension. Not a shared dimension, but one of your own creation for your own purposes. Sometimes an idea will trigger this shift and then the person will perceive this download of information as inspiration and in all fairness they are the same thing. You see once you are in that space, and every human I suspect knows what I am talking about when I say, that comfortable relaxed state when your mind is open and you allow it to wander, that feeling is a key to the door of your inspiration.
The letting go of expectation and control. The feeling of whimsy, excitement and child like anticipation will often foster a more colorful or memorable experience and then relax and let mind travel to far off places, people of different shades and colors, shapes and sizes. Imagine what they eat or what their occupations are. Imagine how they love their earth mother, imagine their name. Let yourself travel to your universe of creativity.
Allow yourself to travel there consciously however, into your memory dimensions or the fantasy dimensions and if you are brave enough, invite others to your dimensions by sharing the experience with them. Invite them to tune into the vibe of a dimension you imagine and see if they can pull out ideas from that place as well. Like a well, once you tether your bucket to the pulley and slowly dip it in the water draped in the darkness pulling up with you the freshest, crystal clear waters that can be drunk and behold. This is the only entertainment one needs. Silence and imagination.
Books and movies are an artificial form of imagination. They are second hand yet for the first time reader the ideas are fresh and brand new painting a magical picture in the mind. And it is much like traveling a great distance while sitting on your bed.
This is the magic of the dimensions of the mind. As the mind, body and spirit are linked, where one travels the others too shall go only from different perspectives.
The perspective of the mind is the listening or the stillness that occurs in ones own mind, the perspective of the body, the entire physical system and all its moving parts or the perspective of the soul, that immovable shard of the one infinite creator that sees and knows all things dwelling outside of time.
The human system can connect to each of these three angles of perspective at any time at the speed of thought (nearly instantaneousness), the idea however, is to exercise that power thoughtfully. In fact, it is my perspective that everything we do should be done thoughtfully. From the most mundane to the most extraordinary. So next time you find yourself lost in another dimension take note of the feelings, impressions, visions, colors, and perceived time. Remember that you are creator beings, powerful, splendid beings of love and radiant light. Blessed be my sweet children of light.
Amen
Brandyrox and Friends
Sometimes we can be so wrapped up in thought that the world is spinning all around us and we miss everything. Sometimes we can be stuck in these dimensions of thought for a very long time. We perceive our trips to be instantaneous, but when you are in the thought, like a dream time begins to loose its power. This is demonstrated in movies all the time via sappy montage just before the couples reunite.
Some words trigger the leap, some people find it relaxing an learn to induce it, others have no control or awareness that anything going on at all since that is how the life experience has always been, like not seeing the forest while looking at a single tree.
We trip, stumble into an old memory that pulls us into an old pattern of thinking and then the old feelings begin to rush back and before you know it you're back in a dream of your past, perhaps slightly faded or sun bleached. While you are observing/experiencing this memory you are, for all intensive purposes, in another dimension. Not a shared dimension, but one of your own creation for your own purposes. Sometimes an idea will trigger this shift and then the person will perceive this download of information as inspiration and in all fairness they are the same thing. You see once you are in that space, and every human I suspect knows what I am talking about when I say, that comfortable relaxed state when your mind is open and you allow it to wander, that feeling is a key to the door of your inspiration.
The letting go of expectation and control. The feeling of whimsy, excitement and child like anticipation will often foster a more colorful or memorable experience and then relax and let mind travel to far off places, people of different shades and colors, shapes and sizes. Imagine what they eat or what their occupations are. Imagine how they love their earth mother, imagine their name. Let yourself travel to your universe of creativity.
Allow yourself to travel there consciously however, into your memory dimensions or the fantasy dimensions and if you are brave enough, invite others to your dimensions by sharing the experience with them. Invite them to tune into the vibe of a dimension you imagine and see if they can pull out ideas from that place as well. Like a well, once you tether your bucket to the pulley and slowly dip it in the water draped in the darkness pulling up with you the freshest, crystal clear waters that can be drunk and behold. This is the only entertainment one needs. Silence and imagination.
Books and movies are an artificial form of imagination. They are second hand yet for the first time reader the ideas are fresh and brand new painting a magical picture in the mind. And it is much like traveling a great distance while sitting on your bed.
This is the magic of the dimensions of the mind. As the mind, body and spirit are linked, where one travels the others too shall go only from different perspectives.
The perspective of the mind is the listening or the stillness that occurs in ones own mind, the perspective of the body, the entire physical system and all its moving parts or the perspective of the soul, that immovable shard of the one infinite creator that sees and knows all things dwelling outside of time.
The human system can connect to each of these three angles of perspective at any time at the speed of thought (nearly instantaneousness), the idea however, is to exercise that power thoughtfully. In fact, it is my perspective that everything we do should be done thoughtfully. From the most mundane to the most extraordinary. So next time you find yourself lost in another dimension take note of the feelings, impressions, visions, colors, and perceived time. Remember that you are creator beings, powerful, splendid beings of love and radiant light. Blessed be my sweet children of light.
Amen
Brandyrox and Friends
Monday, August 2, 2010
Dreaming in reflection
Thought trail began just so: the sun so bright and brilliant in the mid day sky illuminates fully the luster or lack easily for even the most minute detail can be seen while bathed in mid-day sun light. Adversely, the moon is the reflection of the suns light bouncing off a pale, heavenly moon. Much like mid-day sun, so to conscious reality is blazingly naked before your eyes when one is centered, focused and awake to the wondrous blooms, whizzes and skaws of the world around you. As the sun fades and you drift into dusk and then to night when the world is dark, peacefully dreaming and those dreams are merely the reflections of the day we have lived or have yet to live.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Musings
I feel
I have felt
I know
I have known
I run
I have run
I am
I will be
There is no time like the present to know yourself more
to feel yourself being more and more who you are
letting go of all the ideas you had about that
embracing this fresh, evolving picture of what it means to be you
How does it feel to you be you?
What is it like everyday?
How do you make your choices?
Who's voices, if not your own, do you hear?
Who is looking and who are you looking to?
Why are you here?
Each question, given the time, the place, the context will return and answer in relation to that time, place and context, but will not ever be a summation in totality. There is no end to who and what you are. There is no beginning either, not really for these are all locked within all that is and all that is is locked within infinity. There is no escaping this.
We may toy at the idea that there is an end but that is only to move the plot along.
I have felt
I know
I have known
I run
I have run
I am
I will be
There is no time like the present to know yourself more
to feel yourself being more and more who you are
letting go of all the ideas you had about that
embracing this fresh, evolving picture of what it means to be you
How does it feel to you be you?
What is it like everyday?
How do you make your choices?
Who's voices, if not your own, do you hear?
Who is looking and who are you looking to?
Why are you here?
Each question, given the time, the place, the context will return and answer in relation to that time, place and context, but will not ever be a summation in totality. There is no end to who and what you are. There is no beginning either, not really for these are all locked within all that is and all that is is locked within infinity. There is no escaping this.
We may toy at the idea that there is an end but that is only to move the plot along.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Dream captured Sunday, June 13 early am
SO first thing was I was in a classroom like place, kind like my sons old class room and I was in the back getting ready to get married. But the I was so confused by the guy I was marrying, because he is an old friend from many years ago that is (1. already married, 2. I have zero feelings for him that way now and in my dream 3. he was in a wheel chair, which he doesn't have and the whole time while I was getting ready, I was thinking about how he really isn't the right fit for me. I looked down and on the table there were blue bands and hair clips and for a second I thought, maybe I should grab one so I would have "something blue" for the ensemble that I never did bother looking down to see, BTW. But I didn't the blue things, I left them on the table because I did't think I had the rest of the "traditional" things, didn't have time to look for them (something old, something new, something borrowed and something blue)
The music starts playing and look out but as I'm walking down the isle, I felt a clip in my hair on the left side (an 80's violet colored star clip). As I walk down the red carpeted isle, I remember I'm dreaming and this is a dream and I can do whatever needs to be done without being afraid of the situation. People are not still and im about to walk to the stage part but all the bridesmaids are outside, talking and laughing and its dark on the isle so they can't tell if I'm there or not. So I go to my groom in the wheelchair, outside and ask him why he wants to marry me. He tells me that I know why, why wouldn't he. I know in my heart it isn't the right thing to do. I did not feel this man loved me enough and that we were marring for the wrong reasons.
then the dream changes.
I'm in my old apartment in vegas, only it's not quite my apartment, not really. We had come home after being away for a long time. I start looking around, putting things away I guess and my son is in his room but the placed is wrecked and dark. I'm walking around the house, checking out the condition of the rooms.Then one minute it starts raining in the dining room, so I grab a pot off the stove and place it under the largest spout of water, but the whole room is raining and I see the gray carpet is all soaked. So I leave that room and go back to my son's room where he is playing and my mom is there now laying behind him on his bed. "Mom when did you get here," I asked , but he says she just got back and snuck in. So I leave them in the room when I picked up a box to continue cleaning but I was startled when a small blue headed lizard popped its head out. So I took him and the box outside and let him out safely. When I got back in, I noticed the front door needed my attention. It was a green door, but when I tried to hang right it buckled and the left corner pulled away so I pushed the corner back in and then it rippled, but I couldn't do much more about that, the last thing I remember, is I turned from the door and to my right on the floor was an enormous tangle of wires and trunks neatly bundled into little packs stacked in a massive pile. I woke up frustrated and not feeling peaceful at all. In fact it felt like a terrible dream.
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I think the first part has to do with my job, at a school and I can only guess the second part is about my upcoming return to vegas for a trip. I too will look into some of the symbols.
The music starts playing and look out but as I'm walking down the isle, I felt a clip in my hair on the left side (an 80's violet colored star clip). As I walk down the red carpeted isle, I remember I'm dreaming and this is a dream and I can do whatever needs to be done without being afraid of the situation. People are not still and im about to walk to the stage part but all the bridesmaids are outside, talking and laughing and its dark on the isle so they can't tell if I'm there or not. So I go to my groom in the wheelchair, outside and ask him why he wants to marry me. He tells me that I know why, why wouldn't he. I know in my heart it isn't the right thing to do. I did not feel this man loved me enough and that we were marring for the wrong reasons.
then the dream changes.
I'm in my old apartment in vegas, only it's not quite my apartment, not really. We had come home after being away for a long time. I start looking around, putting things away I guess and my son is in his room but the placed is wrecked and dark. I'm walking around the house, checking out the condition of the rooms.Then one minute it starts raining in the dining room, so I grab a pot off the stove and place it under the largest spout of water, but the whole room is raining and I see the gray carpet is all soaked. So I leave that room and go back to my son's room where he is playing and my mom is there now laying behind him on his bed. "Mom when did you get here," I asked , but he says she just got back and snuck in. So I leave them in the room when I picked up a box to continue cleaning but I was startled when a small blue headed lizard popped its head out. So I took him and the box outside and let him out safely. When I got back in, I noticed the front door needed my attention. It was a green door, but when I tried to hang right it buckled and the left corner pulled away so I pushed the corner back in and then it rippled, but I couldn't do much more about that, the last thing I remember, is I turned from the door and to my right on the floor was an enormous tangle of wires and trunks neatly bundled into little packs stacked in a massive pile. I woke up frustrated and not feeling peaceful at all. In fact it felt like a terrible dream.
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I think the first part has to do with my job, at a school and I can only guess the second part is about my upcoming return to vegas for a trip. I too will look into some of the symbols.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
We are, this day transmitting this message to all beings, to be received by all beings.
We are, this day transmitting this message to all beings, to be received by all beings. To know what is and what can be. We are all awake and awakening in our own time. We are light, We are all light.
A friend asked me today, how do I get back to my center? Sometimes the world distracts me at such a level I have a hard time finding my way back to alignment.
One thing to find first is center. Identify what that is for you first.
How does it feel to be in balance?
What sensations do I experience?
In other words, how do I know I am centered or in alignment? It is simple. Ask then pay attention. Not an overly emotionally charged demand or spot light like attention, but a light, quiet yet excitedly attentive observer sort of attention is more likely to bring out the sort of answers you are looking for.
Sometimes it helps to ask the questions aloud and then pick a character to answer the question for you, a friend perhaps or in your mind the smartest person in the world. It is a form of soliloquy that will allow you to project the answer in the form of a fictional being that knows all the answers to all of your questions almost as fast as you ask them. It is like an free flowing conversation between two people on one is your conscious mind and the other will be from the imagination, the door way to the unconscious.
Allow your imagination to cast a line into the deep vast ocean of the sleeping mind to retrieve a fish or two for the masses. We are all casting our lines everyday and retrieving bits and pieces of information. Some of us are more prolific than others in the is area but all have the capacity and surely the talent, all they need is the will to create their own sort of system to derive the proper technique, if you will.
I am of the opinion that anytime anything is "created", that veil of reality has been breached and a fish has been wriggled back. Some decide to share this information and other dine on it in secret. Hopefully, we can begin to feast together more often for imagine the feast we would have before us.
I think it is important to document our experiences, to share them with the world if we are so motivated. How powerful we would be by even allowing ourselves the opportunity to have a voice, to be empowered with a sense of knowingness.
And the truth is we already have access to the answer to any question you have about anything that is, for you are that as well. You are the question and the answer which are manifest, one from one another. We have been fooled into believing that someone outside of ourselves could find the answer for us, but the truth is, we all have the same access yet allow the desire to give over the answer to another or make another's answer their own just as easily.
You needn't give up that power to anyone. You needn't make it a concern either. You simply must allow yourself to know and trust that you know, even if the mind doesn't make sense of it immediately. Remember that you have three minds if you will, that of the highest mind or the father, that of the physical mind, the son and the heart mind or the holy spirit. The father will teach the son in a manner that is loving and patient, demonstrating the needs and some of the wants of the son. The son, however must relinquish its control over the heart mind and listen to the father, allowing itself to harmonize with the three aspects of himself. The three minds work in perfect harmony with one another, synchronized, balanced and free.
Now you can create fully whatever it is that you want. Now you can make of yourself what you want, for it is only that wanting that drives this experience, and when you tire of it and you eventually will, the binds will be lifted and graduation will take place. You will travel into the new realities you are creating. The one being is evolving together, a family of ourselves.
This channel wonders if all lives tell stories of the great change that is coming, if all times and places speak of a great change, for in all of creation we are in perpetual change. Shifting into one form of consciousness to another. Perhaps even the sleep state where deep unconsciousness lies deeply veiled. Many of you wish to lift the veil completely to reveal the the unconscious mind like a stripper would down to the knickers instead of letting the answers bloom for you like a flower in the summer sun.
Remember things like grace, elegance, beauty, for they guide you just as pleasure, comfort and peace do.
Know that you are all that is and remind yourself of it often. Humble yourself that ALL THAT IS is YOU. Let go of fear and doubt and worry for they are lousy servants, and hire trust, honesty and kindness instead. If we were to reveal all the mystery lying beyond the veil, then what would be the point of incarnating at all? This is the playground of spiritual evolution. Embrace the level you are at and allow yourself to expand daily.
Soak in the sun, imagine yourselves bathed in light of love, peace, well being and joy. Feel the joy as it fills your inner bodies with healing, loving light. Imagine yourself like a solar panel charging the batteries, if you will. And imagine a little meter that shows you that it is filling and filling and when you reach full, allow yourselves to hold that feeling. Pay attention to how you feel, the sensations.
Feel how you can shine now brightly once you decide to switch yourself on. You are always plugged into the energy you are like an auto charged wireless device.
You can imagine that the tank is filled instantly if you wish. Some people might like the extra time to get acquainted with the feelings, like dipping their toes in the water. Some of us long time swimmers think it best to just jump in and enjoy. The choice is yours.
Hope this helps you on your journey this day, if it did please comment. You are loved beyond imagination, comprehension or explanation. Namaste.
BrandyRox and friends
A friend asked me today, how do I get back to my center? Sometimes the world distracts me at such a level I have a hard time finding my way back to alignment.
One thing to find first is center. Identify what that is for you first.
How does it feel to be in balance?
What sensations do I experience?
In other words, how do I know I am centered or in alignment? It is simple. Ask then pay attention. Not an overly emotionally charged demand or spot light like attention, but a light, quiet yet excitedly attentive observer sort of attention is more likely to bring out the sort of answers you are looking for.
Sometimes it helps to ask the questions aloud and then pick a character to answer the question for you, a friend perhaps or in your mind the smartest person in the world. It is a form of soliloquy that will allow you to project the answer in the form of a fictional being that knows all the answers to all of your questions almost as fast as you ask them. It is like an free flowing conversation between two people on one is your conscious mind and the other will be from the imagination, the door way to the unconscious.
Allow your imagination to cast a line into the deep vast ocean of the sleeping mind to retrieve a fish or two for the masses. We are all casting our lines everyday and retrieving bits and pieces of information. Some of us are more prolific than others in the is area but all have the capacity and surely the talent, all they need is the will to create their own sort of system to derive the proper technique, if you will.
I am of the opinion that anytime anything is "created", that veil of reality has been breached and a fish has been wriggled back. Some decide to share this information and other dine on it in secret. Hopefully, we can begin to feast together more often for imagine the feast we would have before us.
I think it is important to document our experiences, to share them with the world if we are so motivated. How powerful we would be by even allowing ourselves the opportunity to have a voice, to be empowered with a sense of knowingness.
And the truth is we already have access to the answer to any question you have about anything that is, for you are that as well. You are the question and the answer which are manifest, one from one another. We have been fooled into believing that someone outside of ourselves could find the answer for us, but the truth is, we all have the same access yet allow the desire to give over the answer to another or make another's answer their own just as easily.
You needn't give up that power to anyone. You needn't make it a concern either. You simply must allow yourself to know and trust that you know, even if the mind doesn't make sense of it immediately. Remember that you have three minds if you will, that of the highest mind or the father, that of the physical mind, the son and the heart mind or the holy spirit. The father will teach the son in a manner that is loving and patient, demonstrating the needs and some of the wants of the son. The son, however must relinquish its control over the heart mind and listen to the father, allowing itself to harmonize with the three aspects of himself. The three minds work in perfect harmony with one another, synchronized, balanced and free.
Now you can create fully whatever it is that you want. Now you can make of yourself what you want, for it is only that wanting that drives this experience, and when you tire of it and you eventually will, the binds will be lifted and graduation will take place. You will travel into the new realities you are creating. The one being is evolving together, a family of ourselves.
This channel wonders if all lives tell stories of the great change that is coming, if all times and places speak of a great change, for in all of creation we are in perpetual change. Shifting into one form of consciousness to another. Perhaps even the sleep state where deep unconsciousness lies deeply veiled. Many of you wish to lift the veil completely to reveal the the unconscious mind like a stripper would down to the knickers instead of letting the answers bloom for you like a flower in the summer sun.
Remember things like grace, elegance, beauty, for they guide you just as pleasure, comfort and peace do.
Know that you are all that is and remind yourself of it often. Humble yourself that ALL THAT IS is YOU. Let go of fear and doubt and worry for they are lousy servants, and hire trust, honesty and kindness instead. If we were to reveal all the mystery lying beyond the veil, then what would be the point of incarnating at all? This is the playground of spiritual evolution. Embrace the level you are at and allow yourself to expand daily.
Soak in the sun, imagine yourselves bathed in light of love, peace, well being and joy. Feel the joy as it fills your inner bodies with healing, loving light. Imagine yourself like a solar panel charging the batteries, if you will. And imagine a little meter that shows you that it is filling and filling and when you reach full, allow yourselves to hold that feeling. Pay attention to how you feel, the sensations.
Feel how you can shine now brightly once you decide to switch yourself on. You are always plugged into the energy you are like an auto charged wireless device.
You can imagine that the tank is filled instantly if you wish. Some people might like the extra time to get acquainted with the feelings, like dipping their toes in the water. Some of us long time swimmers think it best to just jump in and enjoy. The choice is yours.
Hope this helps you on your journey this day, if it did please comment. You are loved beyond imagination, comprehension or explanation. Namaste.
BrandyRox and friends
Friday, May 28, 2010
choice
So you see you have the choice as to how you weild your truth. How you learn or teach, how you create or destroy. They are both within you and you have the power of the will to make it so.
Decisions as far as who you are or what you are here to do lie within for all the answers dwell within.
The light that shines within is the guiding force, like a lighthouse on the shore.
Decisions as far as who you are or what you are here to do lie within for all the answers dwell within.
The light that shines within is the guiding force, like a lighthouse on the shore.
On the Truth
What is Truth?
What does it mean to "tell the truth"?
Honesty is a knowingness, firmament beneath your feet. It is a 'ringing' in the heart. It is a feeling of absoluteness and unwavering standing on its own, unabated.
Truth and honesty are inherently linked. Truth being the Subject while honesty is more the context. You know truth, you speak with honesty. There is no need to hide beneath layers or symbols, no need for worry or misunderstanding. For any wrinkle can be easily smoothed out with a gentle hand and warm compress.
We speak about truth because it is important that we are able to find this within ourselves. It is a thick skin of sorts in that you build up the trust within yourself so that even when the storm may come to rattle you, that pillar of truth and knowingness within tethers you anywhere.
There is a place inside your heart so massive, so solid that nothing will ever rock it. We can never just tell you, you must find your own way. This is key. No one can tell you what is Truth for you. No one. Only you. You are.
So many people want to tell you and think they have all the answers. Perhaps they do and it is the truth for them but it doesn't have to be the truth for you. To thine self be true.
It is time that we not fear our own truth or rest upon her laurels, but stand with her openly and proud for we have found our strength again, we have found ourselves at the root of it, we have faced the ugly thing in the eye and seen it for what it truly is, our center. So let whatever it is that comes from your center shine. Let it radiate from within.
Once you have accepted the light of truth into your life, the falsities begin to peel away and the colors of the world can be seen with new eyes; with clarity. You can begin to pull and peek and poke around the world with a renewed sense of joy and love.
Some people have tried very hard to create truths for themselves, some have been more or less successful. Some may ignore their truth entirely and rely on the word or deeds of others to find their truth.
I imagine my truth to be a great lion. It stands to my side ready to stamp out lies, armed with ferocity and grace. The lion is strong minded and centered. It can call upon the pack for assistance but also relishes in conquering its prey solo. Truth is mighty and strong, an able match for any opponent.
There must be the balance of grace and delicate use of the lions force. Love being the ultimate equalizer allows the adept to use the power and fierce nature of the lion with the love and unity of all things and one of the first great truths of all creation.
I Am
What does it mean to "tell the truth"?
Honesty is a knowingness, firmament beneath your feet. It is a 'ringing' in the heart. It is a feeling of absoluteness and unwavering standing on its own, unabated.
Truth and honesty are inherently linked. Truth being the Subject while honesty is more the context. You know truth, you speak with honesty. There is no need to hide beneath layers or symbols, no need for worry or misunderstanding. For any wrinkle can be easily smoothed out with a gentle hand and warm compress.
We speak about truth because it is important that we are able to find this within ourselves. It is a thick skin of sorts in that you build up the trust within yourself so that even when the storm may come to rattle you, that pillar of truth and knowingness within tethers you anywhere.
There is a place inside your heart so massive, so solid that nothing will ever rock it. We can never just tell you, you must find your own way. This is key. No one can tell you what is Truth for you. No one. Only you. You are.
So many people want to tell you and think they have all the answers. Perhaps they do and it is the truth for them but it doesn't have to be the truth for you. To thine self be true.
It is time that we not fear our own truth or rest upon her laurels, but stand with her openly and proud for we have found our strength again, we have found ourselves at the root of it, we have faced the ugly thing in the eye and seen it for what it truly is, our center. So let whatever it is that comes from your center shine. Let it radiate from within.
Once you have accepted the light of truth into your life, the falsities begin to peel away and the colors of the world can be seen with new eyes; with clarity. You can begin to pull and peek and poke around the world with a renewed sense of joy and love.
Some people have tried very hard to create truths for themselves, some have been more or less successful. Some may ignore their truth entirely and rely on the word or deeds of others to find their truth.
I imagine my truth to be a great lion. It stands to my side ready to stamp out lies, armed with ferocity and grace. The lion is strong minded and centered. It can call upon the pack for assistance but also relishes in conquering its prey solo. Truth is mighty and strong, an able match for any opponent.
There must be the balance of grace and delicate use of the lions force. Love being the ultimate equalizer allows the adept to use the power and fierce nature of the lion with the love and unity of all things and one of the first great truths of all creation.
I Am
Monday, May 17, 2010
Great power and what you do with it
those of you who have great power, and there are many of you who do, we might remind you that that which you dole out, so you can expect to receive. There are some among you who choose to dole out hatred and so much hatred is sent to you and you use that hatred to fuel even more hatred until it has consumes you. There are some among you who choose to dole out worry as if the world wants not only to deal with its own problems, it must now carry yours as well, or your worry of them. There are even some still who dole out punishment, or directives or commands to suit their whims, so to will they be punished directed and commanded.
Some however, have found within themselves the will to love instead. To dole this vibration out into the world more than any other. Can you guess what will happen to them?
And when the world cycles back the full weight of the love they have been doling out into the world, hold tight, because even those who are reaping the lower vibrations will feel the wake of this love. It will shake every being in all of creation for that love will be so great it will consume us all.
Love and light
and the Power to do what is right.
Some however, have found within themselves the will to love instead. To dole this vibration out into the world more than any other. Can you guess what will happen to them?
And when the world cycles back the full weight of the love they have been doling out into the world, hold tight, because even those who are reaping the lower vibrations will feel the wake of this love. It will shake every being in all of creation for that love will be so great it will consume us all.
Love and light
and the Power to do what is right.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Past Life After after thoughts
Upon thinking about the information now after thinking about a little more I feel inclined to include more information that is coming through now.
When I think of the first life information it makes some sense to me in that and this might sound really ridiculous, but I was a gynormous Buffy The Vampire Slayer fan in my late teen early twenty years, my specific fascination being with the Spike character, to such degree it propelled me into the graphic arts to compete with other nerdy Spiketts making tribute banners and avatars for one another in creative appreciation for the show we all loved to love. The idea of literally drinking blood with this body is disgusting, but when imagining another beings desire to do that, I am not disgusted, simply intrigued but more sympathetic, what a painful thing it would be for someone who felt the connection to all that is yet is physically compelled to take the life of another. Inner turmoil and conflict that could last lifetimes. I am so sad just thinking about it now. strange and irrational huh, none the less, it is what comes out.
To the crippled ear life I can say that I have drawn a picture of that event but when I went to write the blog twice I miss typed the story my grandfather told me, the story I included in my original blog, but the miss type was that the man crippled ear cut his own ear off in defense or defiance, neither of which to my logical mind makes any sense. So I decided to include the story I had heard repeatedly growing up instead.
To the third life I can say that This woman was bathes in light and seems as if she had fallen a great distance. I felt when the information was being pulled through that she was very light and very bright and to the right if that makes any sense.
She was very certainly a she though any man would give her their ear in an instant for she was so clear as a bell, so resonant that any being would fancy a chat with her. Wise, eager to help. I perceive her environment as bright light, columns and streams of it. You can sort of jump into currents to travel to places, between places, there are many paths of light that have been worn over time from others who have traveled. You know how to get there you just must let yourself see it in your minds eye. She see the currents are pulling more people in a certain direction.
This is her job, to monitor the flow of some of these channels. important work. difficult and sometimes very, there is no word, it is across between stern and sad and compassionate and decisive and discernment. In other words, to play the balance of power verses guidance, she must take a myriad of variables into consideration. I can imagine her from a very high perspective watching currents of colored light flowing over a massive circuit board the size of 10 lane freeways criss crossing in every direction.
SUDDENLY IT RAINS. And I am reminded of my reoccurring dream i had when I was a kid.
It was of three images repeating like flashing one after the other:
one was a white house with flowers in the front yard, purple and blue ones, but it wasn't a happy house but it sure looked happy enough on the outside. I only ever could see it from the street, never from the inside only this lame cleche of a house.
Second image is of enormous, very powerful metal pistons, a whole set of them. They are pounding the rhythms fiercely and mechanically, cold hard, empty and persistent.
The third one I don't recall exactly only that I know there were three. The only thing I can guess is that it had to do with numbers because I have a vivid memory of going into the kitchen as a young child and seeing large sesame street like numbers, thick colorful numbers as real as day dancing on the cabinets and they scared the living daylights out of me.
I think her job might be a duty/honor/privilege to guard the flow. She takes it very seriously. I also have this image when I think of her that there is an eye very high on the wall of eyes and hers is near the top with her friends around her governing together. We are about to turn our collective gaze in a new direction and she and they will be leading/coordinating/guiding/guarding it isn't like we are the boss but we are the guardians. we guard.
She saw the flare of energy rising up on earth. Things were shifting. From her perspective all her lives past were incorporated fully so she could easily recall any pic of useful data at any second, the memories of her past experiences with nuclear power and explosions so when earth people had that power and the interest in that planet went up she turned her attention like the others upon her sphere.
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Well that is what I was got but then got distracted by the world her on earth again.. Ill talk to you soon
When I think of the first life information it makes some sense to me in that and this might sound really ridiculous, but I was a gynormous Buffy The Vampire Slayer fan in my late teen early twenty years, my specific fascination being with the Spike character, to such degree it propelled me into the graphic arts to compete with other nerdy Spiketts making tribute banners and avatars for one another in creative appreciation for the show we all loved to love. The idea of literally drinking blood with this body is disgusting, but when imagining another beings desire to do that, I am not disgusted, simply intrigued but more sympathetic, what a painful thing it would be for someone who felt the connection to all that is yet is physically compelled to take the life of another. Inner turmoil and conflict that could last lifetimes. I am so sad just thinking about it now. strange and irrational huh, none the less, it is what comes out.
To the crippled ear life I can say that I have drawn a picture of that event but when I went to write the blog twice I miss typed the story my grandfather told me, the story I included in my original blog, but the miss type was that the man crippled ear cut his own ear off in defense or defiance, neither of which to my logical mind makes any sense. So I decided to include the story I had heard repeatedly growing up instead.
To the third life I can say that This woman was bathes in light and seems as if she had fallen a great distance. I felt when the information was being pulled through that she was very light and very bright and to the right if that makes any sense.
She was very certainly a she though any man would give her their ear in an instant for she was so clear as a bell, so resonant that any being would fancy a chat with her. Wise, eager to help. I perceive her environment as bright light, columns and streams of it. You can sort of jump into currents to travel to places, between places, there are many paths of light that have been worn over time from others who have traveled. You know how to get there you just must let yourself see it in your minds eye. She see the currents are pulling more people in a certain direction.
This is her job, to monitor the flow of some of these channels. important work. difficult and sometimes very, there is no word, it is across between stern and sad and compassionate and decisive and discernment. In other words, to play the balance of power verses guidance, she must take a myriad of variables into consideration. I can imagine her from a very high perspective watching currents of colored light flowing over a massive circuit board the size of 10 lane freeways criss crossing in every direction.
SUDDENLY IT RAINS. And I am reminded of my reoccurring dream i had when I was a kid.
It was of three images repeating like flashing one after the other:
one was a white house with flowers in the front yard, purple and blue ones, but it wasn't a happy house but it sure looked happy enough on the outside. I only ever could see it from the street, never from the inside only this lame cleche of a house.
Second image is of enormous, very powerful metal pistons, a whole set of them. They are pounding the rhythms fiercely and mechanically, cold hard, empty and persistent.
The third one I don't recall exactly only that I know there were three. The only thing I can guess is that it had to do with numbers because I have a vivid memory of going into the kitchen as a young child and seeing large sesame street like numbers, thick colorful numbers as real as day dancing on the cabinets and they scared the living daylights out of me.
I think her job might be a duty/honor/privilege to guard the flow. She takes it very seriously. I also have this image when I think of her that there is an eye very high on the wall of eyes and hers is near the top with her friends around her governing together. We are about to turn our collective gaze in a new direction and she and they will be leading/coordinating/guiding/guarding it isn't like we are the boss but we are the guardians. we guard.
She saw the flare of energy rising up on earth. Things were shifting. From her perspective all her lives past were incorporated fully so she could easily recall any pic of useful data at any second, the memories of her past experiences with nuclear power and explosions so when earth people had that power and the interest in that planet went up she turned her attention like the others upon her sphere.
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Well that is what I was got but then got distracted by the world her on earth again.. Ill talk to you soon
Past Life Regression Meditation 1
This meditation occurred at Between 7:30 am and 8:07am today 5-16-2010
Process: I attempted to access the main branch of the Akashic library in the central sun. I imagined that I was in a library with large white pillars and glass or fine crystal windows floor to ceiling. It was all filling with fantastic light. At first I tried to imagine it mentally only and I heard "you were crippled ear. It was you who lost your ear" and I wrote it down on the paper. But then something instinctual happened. I closed my eyes again and this time when I looked through my minds eye I actually spoke aloud as if a small bookeeper came up to me to ask if I needed assistance, I said yes, I am looking for information on a past life, for you know. And I meagerly swiped my hands down from face to sternum, this being... I imagined the little man nod and walk away, then in an instant I was holding a black bound leather book. When the book opened it I could see only the darkest shades of red and black. I scribbled with my hands (in real time present what I was seeing in my minds eye) writing the following lines:
Life 1: much brutality
violent people high in sexual energy
hungry for life
thirsty for blood, they drank blood, male energy
Then I asked if I could see the most recent life before this one and this is what I received:
much sadness
she is in the higher realms, upper echelon
very bright, over achiever
she saw such anguish
she is seeing so much brutality and pain on earth
why why why
She must know why?!?! why!?!
she must see it for herself
so I am here
Toumblesd humbled
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The crippled ear thing relates to a story from my grandfathers side of the family, the greek side where I was told that our family name was Kousefdakis meaning "crippled ear" and the story being that a great grandfather was in battle where another man cut off his ear.
Process: I attempted to access the main branch of the Akashic library in the central sun. I imagined that I was in a library with large white pillars and glass or fine crystal windows floor to ceiling. It was all filling with fantastic light. At first I tried to imagine it mentally only and I heard "you were crippled ear. It was you who lost your ear" and I wrote it down on the paper. But then something instinctual happened. I closed my eyes again and this time when I looked through my minds eye I actually spoke aloud as if a small bookeeper came up to me to ask if I needed assistance, I said yes, I am looking for information on a past life, for you know. And I meagerly swiped my hands down from face to sternum, this being... I imagined the little man nod and walk away, then in an instant I was holding a black bound leather book. When the book opened it I could see only the darkest shades of red and black. I scribbled with my hands (in real time present what I was seeing in my minds eye) writing the following lines:
Life 1: much brutality
violent people high in sexual energy
hungry for life
thirsty for blood, they drank blood, male energy
Then I asked if I could see the most recent life before this one and this is what I received:
much sadness
she is in the higher realms, upper echelon
very bright, over achiever
she saw such anguish
she is seeing so much brutality and pain on earth
why why why
She must know why?!?! why!?!
she must see it for herself
so I am here
Toumblesd humbled
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The crippled ear thing relates to a story from my grandfathers side of the family, the greek side where I was told that our family name was Kousefdakis meaning "crippled ear" and the story being that a great grandfather was in battle where another man cut off his ear.
Friday, April 16, 2010
Raising kids in this new world
I was reminded this morning that raising my son is different then when I was raised and even more different than my mom was raised.
In my mom's house as a child, children did what they were told or they would be beat with the belt or a hand, switch or wooden spoon. Threats and things taking away. Yelled at, sent to be with out dinner... all sorts of behavior that was common place practice in disciplining children (perhaps even you as a child).
This made for mostly compliant but broken children doing what they are told out of fear and what truly amounts to blatant violence against children. Subjecting them to your angry rage when they step out of tow.
In my house, as a child, having grown up with a mother who had grown up with her parents, she decided to do it her way. Her was was far less physical and more mental and emotional methods, guilting the child into doing what they should. When I mis behaved I was yelled at, but then the attention would be gone again and I would be left to my own devices.
In my son's house, he has grown up with a mother who is struggling to find the adequate solutions for these age old problems that doesn't include violence, anger or manipulation to help her son succeed. Instead, I value listening and learning from my child to guide him in whatever way I can. To rule with Love above everything else. To stay focused on the positives to build his confidence to achieve these things on his own.
It isn't helpful today when we are trying to teach our children about truth and doing what is right, then they sit in front of a TV and watch the kids on there cause all kinds of chaos, make all kinds of mischief, and its alright, because its all for a laugh. But then you try to live those morals out in the real world and you get smacked in the forehead with anger.
So what is the right thing to do? I will no go backwards. I just have to be a smarter mother. I need to find a peaceful, non violent, non manipulative way to teach self love, self governance and self respect so that when he is asked to show love, governance and respect to others, he has a frame of reference for which to do so.
Today we talked about telling the truth. We talked about how the truth will set you free forever, while a lie may only set you free long enough to tie you up.
He must discover what is the truth for him and not to be afraid of it or ashamed to feel the way he does. He must not be led to believe that he is wrong and adults are right and he needs to change to fit in. The world needs us all to be who and what we are without apologies. It is our responsibility to learn to be ourselves while loving and respecting others. Striving to live in harmony with the things around us, lifting them up a little bit more every time you are with them, instead of beating them down.
Love to you all.
In my mom's house as a child, children did what they were told or they would be beat with the belt or a hand, switch or wooden spoon. Threats and things taking away. Yelled at, sent to be with out dinner... all sorts of behavior that was common place practice in disciplining children (perhaps even you as a child).
This made for mostly compliant but broken children doing what they are told out of fear and what truly amounts to blatant violence against children. Subjecting them to your angry rage when they step out of tow.
In my house, as a child, having grown up with a mother who had grown up with her parents, she decided to do it her way. Her was was far less physical and more mental and emotional methods, guilting the child into doing what they should. When I mis behaved I was yelled at, but then the attention would be gone again and I would be left to my own devices.
In my son's house, he has grown up with a mother who is struggling to find the adequate solutions for these age old problems that doesn't include violence, anger or manipulation to help her son succeed. Instead, I value listening and learning from my child to guide him in whatever way I can. To rule with Love above everything else. To stay focused on the positives to build his confidence to achieve these things on his own.
It isn't helpful today when we are trying to teach our children about truth and doing what is right, then they sit in front of a TV and watch the kids on there cause all kinds of chaos, make all kinds of mischief, and its alright, because its all for a laugh. But then you try to live those morals out in the real world and you get smacked in the forehead with anger.
So what is the right thing to do? I will no go backwards. I just have to be a smarter mother. I need to find a peaceful, non violent, non manipulative way to teach self love, self governance and self respect so that when he is asked to show love, governance and respect to others, he has a frame of reference for which to do so.
Today we talked about telling the truth. We talked about how the truth will set you free forever, while a lie may only set you free long enough to tie you up.
He must discover what is the truth for him and not to be afraid of it or ashamed to feel the way he does. He must not be led to believe that he is wrong and adults are right and he needs to change to fit in. The world needs us all to be who and what we are without apologies. It is our responsibility to learn to be ourselves while loving and respecting others. Striving to live in harmony with the things around us, lifting them up a little bit more every time you are with them, instead of beating them down.
Love to you all.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Re-turned to me
It is possible our paths would cross
in so many many ways
so that we wander
less entangled
then our early days.
How is it then you came to be
so far from me?
Hear you whisper... nothing there;
feel you, see you
everywhere.
How far have you gone?
From where have you been?
Our two paths traveled,
worn thin,
winding in.
Now, hither back home!
I'm waiting for thee,
sitting lazily on yonder tree
gazing earnestly for you to be
the very next person that I see
Walking back home again.
Warm smile, dear old friend;
Full embrace, kiss the face
and love that I have been so graced
to be with you again this day.
Reunited in such a way,
Time no longer holds his sway
The binds of form falls away
And what remains
sings songs of praise
For from this day
we shall remain
one brilliant light, once two.
United now, re-turned to me
and I re-turned to you.
(c) Brandyrox
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Channeling
You see, I have always been connected to the world we can not see. From the time I was a small child, very small, I always spoke to empty rooms, dolls, as if there was someone else there. One might say it was a habitual form of pretend. It was helpful in my theatrical life. You see we all speak to the void. We all "let things out", or vent to the world our frustration or our anger. We also let it out in trans-formative ways like through written works, art, theatre, and singing.
Life is full of opportunities to connect to this unseen force. The way point in the still mind. This is paramount to finding the truth in your own life. Paramount for connecting with spirit, and paramount if you want to be able to create or continue with anything ever with out distraction.
You can feel us when we move through you.We tingle a little and there is an almost inaudible ringing in the distance. We dance with you too.
We know it has been hard, that we seem far away, but trust that we have learned as you have. There is no need for willy nilly. Sometimes a little forethought is necessary to drive your own path. But faith is just as valuable. You need both your wits and your heart to govern anywhere.
When the moon is in the 7th house and jupiter align with mars, then planet earth will see the sun rise and man will see the sky.
We shall call him from within. Then the choice. Do you wish to stay or do you wish to move onward. You must choose to do so without fear. You must chose whole heartedly. You must be full of your own convictions and not those of others. Choice lies only within. For after one awesome fantastic mission is over another one is assigned. Time is INFINITE. Experience is INFINITE. LOVE is INFINITE.
You and INFINITE. Ponder this daily. Remember that the little things are transient and will pass, let them not waver you from your course. THose that wish to hear the word of the Highest High, will hear it. Those who call out to it, shall be seen.
We love you always
Allah
Event 4 captured April 10, 2010
Brandyrox and freinds
Life is full of opportunities to connect to this unseen force. The way point in the still mind. This is paramount to finding the truth in your own life. Paramount for connecting with spirit, and paramount if you want to be able to create or continue with anything ever with out distraction.
You can feel us when we move through you.We tingle a little and there is an almost inaudible ringing in the distance. We dance with you too.
We know it has been hard, that we seem far away, but trust that we have learned as you have. There is no need for willy nilly. Sometimes a little forethought is necessary to drive your own path. But faith is just as valuable. You need both your wits and your heart to govern anywhere.
When the moon is in the 7th house and jupiter align with mars, then planet earth will see the sun rise and man will see the sky.
We shall call him from within. Then the choice. Do you wish to stay or do you wish to move onward. You must choose to do so without fear. You must chose whole heartedly. You must be full of your own convictions and not those of others. Choice lies only within. For after one awesome fantastic mission is over another one is assigned. Time is INFINITE. Experience is INFINITE. LOVE is INFINITE.
You and INFINITE. Ponder this daily. Remember that the little things are transient and will pass, let them not waver you from your course. THose that wish to hear the word of the Highest High, will hear it. Those who call out to it, shall be seen.
We love you always
Allah
Event 4 captured April 10, 2010
Brandyrox and freinds
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps
Perhaps I see nothing at all, for I am nothing at all and everything
Perhaps you dream it all
perahaps no one will listen
perhaps you are alone
perhaps things will be ok
perhaps things will be better
perhaps you will feel better
where is this perhaps?
when is this perhaps?
how will you know when perhaps turns into happening?
Let go already will you
let go of your control or lack there of
let go of fear
let go of doubt
let your heart and mind wander into a place that is unbelieveble and real
then you will see that there is no right, no wrong, only is
there is no separation, no division, only is
let go of this notion that something is wrong, or something went wrong, for even the work mistake is perhaps mistaken for everything has purpose and those things we call mistakes are actually lessons. Lessons you can either take or not take, to not take it would be to miss the lesson before you. (miss-take)
There is nothing else for today.
Love to you always - Goodbye
brandyrox and friends.
Perhaps you dream it all
perahaps no one will listen
perhaps you are alone
perhaps things will be ok
perhaps things will be better
perhaps you will feel better
where is this perhaps?
when is this perhaps?
how will you know when perhaps turns into happening?
Let go already will you
let go of your control or lack there of
let go of fear
let go of doubt
let your heart and mind wander into a place that is unbelieveble and real
then you will see that there is no right, no wrong, only is
there is no separation, no division, only is
let go of this notion that something is wrong, or something went wrong, for even the work mistake is perhaps mistaken for everything has purpose and those things we call mistakes are actually lessons. Lessons you can either take or not take, to not take it would be to miss the lesson before you. (miss-take)
There is nothing else for today.
Love to you always - Goodbye
brandyrox and friends.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
When you do speak out or speak up...
Is it ever alright to feel angry at someone? Is it every alright to be upset or disappointed? How about when its a positive thing and you are embarrassed? I have two examples of what I am talking about here and the choices I made in response to them. I invite comments.
Lets say you work with someone and perhaps you didn't start out on the best terms but your relationship has much improved since. Now imagine that their job is vital and that having confidence in their work is a challenge because of all the things that happened in the past with them. The time they messed up something and then this other time when the ball was dropped, yet another time when they didn't follow through or whatever. So you use this information to tell a story. There could have been plenty of times they came through for you, but still this story and its many moving parts are boiled down to a sentence or phrase or two that makes its way into the ears of your sort-of work friends ears. Your co worker then is reprimanded for it but they were told that it was you who brought it up, you who complained. How will you react to this person when you see them again?
Second and different scenario. Imagine that you have a friend of the opposite sex. You met through a mutual friend and after that friend moved, the two of you continue to hang out. Things are moving along fine until one day you realize that you have feelings for this person and it is more than friendship. You struggle internally to decide whether or not it is worth sacrificing a really great friendship to admit that you want to be more than friends. There are many things to consider, but the heart knows what the heart knows and no amount of logical thinking can remove it. So maybe you muster up the courage to do the bare minimum in regard to "outing" yourself, you shoot a text message that states that you wished you could have kissed them, and that's perhaps why it "feels weird" sometimes. You usually hang out every Saturday night. How will you face that person when you do see them?
In both cases, being honest and speaking the truth exposed my feelings but also had an impact on the people around me, on the subjects at hand. Simply, speaking out moved the plot forward, though in both situations only my perspective of the truth was applied.
I want to tell my co-worker thank you for allowing me to see that I have been putting this road block in front of you because of the lowered expectations I have of you, it is unfair that I have not noticed or recognized those times when you helped me. But at the same time, I see that this lack of trust in your performance can be changed because I know you are capable. I love you and thank you for all the times you got it perfect.
In the second case, I was finally able to speak the truth that had been burning a hole inside of me for a little while. The real question remains, why do I feel embarrassed to have feelings for someone? Why do I feel wrong about it? Shouldn't I feel excited and happy like I really did find something special? Instead something in side of me says, uh oh, you did it again didn't you.
What is wrong with me that I feel wrong for falling in love? That I feel sad about it. Perhaps it rests in these old belief systems that tell me that I am not worthy of love for such and such a reason. They won't like me back for this and this reason. If they liked me then yadda yadda yadda, you get the drift. Instead of just saying, listen friend, this is how I feel what do you think about that and then being brave enough to find out what the answer is, opposed to guessing what the answer will be and being afraid of it.
I will no longer be ashamed for feeling how I feel. I am not afraid that you will not feel the same way, but I do consider it a possibility. Whatever the outcome, know that I love you and think so highly of you that I would want to be paired with you. You are special in my eyes. Thank you for showing me that I still have some fear and now that it is visible, I can let it go.
I suppose it doesn't really matter either way how the situations unfold, only how I chose to react and then digest the information. How will I use this new information to form and shape my decisions moving forward, for isn't that the ever present challenge. Eventually I will leave the confines of these specific lessons and move into more and more profound and potentially challenging ones, but for now, one breath at a time. One download of data at a time, piece by piece building the story that will one day be my life. Hopefully, it will not boil down to a two or three sentence summation defining one small glimpse of a single perspective.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Implants, Visions and Thoughts
I have seen visions before while in meditation or a mental place much like it. One particular experience found me grabbing hold of the limbs of a tree whilst a being of bright golden light descended and began to work on my left shoulder.
It should be noted that a few weeks prior I had a discussion with an old friend and his girlfriend, who also do spiritual work. They shared information that was received for me from them that there was a device, an implant of some kind that was placed there from a past life. They said that it could have to do with self worth but its main function was as a training device of some kind. It was to stay in place so as to keep me from losing my mind or "going crazy" while I was awakening from my old paradigms to the present one.
Previous to that, I had been on a spiritual path that was leading me into new areas of awareness. One being feelings. A year or so previously, I had begun paying close attention to my feelings. Listening with my ears and my body for answers to questions. There was a space of time between the observation of something (anything really) and my reaction or thoughts that would come about because of it. A small space where I was accepting the experience for what it is without instant judgement or even consideration. More like just saying internally, alright, thank you for showing me this, now what.
If there was a question asked of me, like "Do you want to hang out tomorrow?" I wouldn't think about what the answer should be, or anything, I simply gave myself the space to find the answer. "Yes" I would reply and then when time came to hang out, I would bring myself without ready set expectations of what will be, without judgement when I got there and I would consciously pay attention to what we were doing in that moment from the perspective of my entire body and not just the position within my mind space.
The space inside the mind seems to be a favorable place of retreat and for some it is simply the result of habitual behavior. We have a tendency to "escape" within the confines of our mind for whatever reason, especially like when we are driving or doing repetitive or mundane tasks. This may be a fun place to retreat to since you have full or seemingly full control of what you experience or imagine experiencing.
Journeying inside the mind can be a wonderful experience, but to a mind that is unhealthy, it can be painful and even more inescapable. Memories play and replay within the mind, pulling with them feelings of the experience from the past into the present moment where everything in life is experienced. So remember when looking backward that the simple act of remembering, is like reliving only on a personal, individual level. The data being played will be as accurate or skewed as the person experiencing it. So if at the moment of the memory, you were in the past thinking about something else, then those experiences, feelings and such link up as well.
For one whose mind is clear, thoughts play but in a way that best suits the observer. That is, information plays when it needs to and not when it is unwanted or "unconscious", therefor one may choose to travel in thought to the past to feel the old feelings again, but only so they can be processed and released, so as not to clutter up active mind space. You don't have to "think about it" in order to understand or learn something, the best way is to experience it, then process it and then let it go.
It should also be noted that thoughts can be both verbal (voices; thoughts containing sounds making words) and/or visual (visions; a picture or image playing in the mental viewer). One could have an experience of hearing a voice calling their name, upon recalling the event, one might recognize the voice to be of a parent. One may want to consider what feelings they had once hearing this or what other images flashed in the mind. Is this voice linked to anything? Is there processing that needs to be done with this experience? The mind would not bring it to your attention if it did not serve a purpose.
Visions contain far more data than words. One could have an experience of seeing something akin to a vision in their mental place and that one visual image contains an infinite amount of information. The soul doesn't speak English or French or whatever, it speaks in symbols, images, or pictures. There is no interpretation to be made necessarily, only describing it with words can be difficult.
The idea is to continue having new information brought to your attention or awareness. If you are caught on "repeat" then to me, that means perhaps you have things that need to have your careful attention. Once those things are experienced for whatever purpose your mind/body/soul requires and the lesson is learned, then it will cease. You will have grasped from the experience whatever you needed to and therefor it will no longer need to serve you.
Be thankful for your thoughts, feelings and experiences, for that is what life is all about. These are tools, they are not you. They serve a specific purpose and that is evolution of the mind/body/spirit. If you aren't using them as a tool, they may very well end up using you as one.
So even as the answers or total explanation for any given experience still may elude me, I rest in the fact that in time all questions will be answered, all reasons explained and all knowing incorporated for the highest possible purpose. My experience of the being of golden light, healing whatever it was in my shoulder, serves whatever purpose it was meant to. Perhaps a purpose was simply to help me put these thoughts to paper, I don't know. Perhaps the purpose was what it was on its face, a healing opportunity given and granted by a being of light and unknown origin. It doesn't matter really, because I have no judgement of it, simply the observation and now the memory of the experience.
You are infinitely more than thoughts, feelings or experiences but I can not tell you who you are, you must seek that out for yourself.
Morning Musings
This morning the sun shines brightly like yesterday morning.
The sky turns its normal shades of blue and white
Birds begin their day long serenade.
I am thankful today. Thankful to be able to show and give love. Thankful for peace and stillness.
I am loving the world in a new way everyday.
I am loving all of us in a new and more vibrant way.
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