Musings

I feel
I have felt

I know
I have known

I run
I have run

I am
I will be

There is no time like the present to know yourself more
to feel yourself being more and more who you are
letting go of all the ideas you had about that
embracing this fresh, evolving picture of what it means to be you

How does it feel to you be you?
What is it like everyday?
How do you make your choices?
Who's voices, if not your own, do you hear?
Who is looking and who are you looking to?

Why are you here?

Each question, given the time, the place, the context will return and answer in relation to that time, place and context, but will not ever be a summation in totality. There is no end to who and what you are. There is no beginning either, not really for these are all locked within all that is and all that is is locked within infinity. There is no escaping this.

We may toy at the idea that there is an end but that is only to move the plot along.

Dream captured Sunday, June 13 early am

SO first thing was I was in a classroom like place, kind like my sons old class room and I was in the back getting ready to get married. But the I was so confused by the guy I was marrying, because he is an old friend from many years ago that is (1. already married, 2. I have zero feelings for him that way now and in my dream 3. he was in a wheel chair, which he doesn't have and the whole time while I was getting ready, I was thinking about how he really isn't the right fit for me. I looked down and on the table there were blue bands and hair clips and for a second I thought, maybe I should grab one so I would have "something blue" for the ensemble that I never did bother looking down to see, BTW. But I didn't the blue things, I left them on the table because I did't think I had the rest of the "traditional" things, didn't have time to look for them (something old, something new, something borrowed and something blue)

The music starts playing and look out but as I'm walking down the isle, I felt a clip in my hair on the left side (an 80's violet colored star clip). As I walk down the red carpeted isle, I remember I'm dreaming and this is a dream and I can do whatever needs to be done without being afraid of the situation. People are not still and im about to walk to the stage part but all the bridesmaids are outside, talking and laughing and its dark on the isle so they can't tell if I'm there or not. So I go to my groom in the wheelchair, outside and ask him why he wants to marry me. He tells me that I know why, why wouldn't he. I know in my heart it isn't the right thing to do. I did not feel this man loved me enough and that we were marring for the wrong reasons.

then the dream changes.

I'm in my old apartment in vegas, only it's not quite my apartment, not really. We had come home after being away for a long time. I start looking around, putting things away I guess and my son is in his room but the placed is wrecked and dark. I'm walking around the house, checking out the condition of the rooms.Then one minute it starts raining in the dining room, so I grab a pot off the stove and place it under the largest spout of water, but the whole room is raining and I see the gray carpet is all soaked. So I leave that room and go back to my son's room where he is playing and my mom is there now laying behind him on his bed. "Mom when did you get here," I asked , but he says she just got back and snuck in. So I leave them in the room when I picked up a box to continue cleaning but I was startled when a small blue headed lizard popped its head out. So I took him and the box outside and let him out safely. When I got back in, I noticed the front door needed my attention. It was a green door, but when I tried to hang right it buckled and the left corner pulled away so I pushed the corner back in and then it rippled, but I couldn't do much more about that, the last thing I remember, is I turned from the door and to my right on the floor was an enormous tangle of wires and trunks neatly bundled into little packs stacked in a massive pile. I woke up frustrated and not feeling peaceful at all. In fact it felt like a terrible dream.

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I think the first part has to do with my job, at a school and I can only guess the second part is about my upcoming return to vegas for a trip. I too will look into some of the symbols.

We are, this day transmitting this message to all beings, to be received by all beings.

We are, this day transmitting this message to all beings, to be received by all beings. To know what is and what can be. We are all awake and awakening in our own time. We are light, We are all light.

A friend asked me today, how do I get back to my center? Sometimes the world distracts me at such a level I have a hard time finding my way back to alignment.

One thing to find first is center. Identify what that is for you first.
How does it feel to be in balance?
What sensations do I experience?
In other words, how do I know I am centered or in alignment? It is simple. Ask then pay attention. Not an overly emotionally charged demand or spot light like attention, but a light, quiet yet excitedly attentive observer sort of attention is more likely to bring out the sort of answers you are looking for.

Sometimes it helps to ask the questions aloud and then pick a character to answer the question for you, a friend perhaps or in your mind the smartest person in the world. It is a form of soliloquy that will allow you to project the answer in the form of a fictional being that knows all the answers to all of your questions almost as fast as you ask them. It is like an free flowing conversation between two people on one is your conscious mind and the other will be from the imagination, the door way to the unconscious.

Allow your imagination to cast a line into the deep vast ocean of the sleeping mind to retrieve a fish or two for the masses. We are all casting our lines everyday and retrieving bits and pieces of information. Some of us are more prolific than others in the is area but all have the capacity and surely the talent, all they need is the will to create their own sort of system to derive the proper technique, if you will.

I am of the opinion that anytime anything is "created", that veil of reality has been breached and a fish has been wriggled back. Some decide to share this information and other dine on it in secret. Hopefully, we can begin to feast together more often for imagine the feast we would have before us.

I think it is important to document our experiences, to share them with the world if we are so motivated. How powerful we would be by even allowing ourselves the opportunity to have a voice, to be empowered with a sense of knowingness.

And the truth is we already have access to the answer to any question you have about anything that is, for you are that as well. You are the question and the answer which are manifest, one from one another. We have been fooled into believing that someone outside of ourselves could find the answer for us, but the truth is, we all have the same access yet allow the desire to give over the answer to another or make another's answer their own just as easily.

You needn't give up that power to anyone. You needn't make it a concern either. You simply must allow yourself to know and trust that you know, even if the mind doesn't make sense of it immediately. Remember that you have three minds if you will, that of the highest mind or the father, that of the physical mind, the son and the heart mind or the holy spirit. The father will teach the son in a manner that is loving and patient, demonstrating the needs and some of the wants of the son. The son, however must relinquish its control over the heart mind and listen to the father, allowing itself to harmonize with the three aspects of himself. The three minds work in perfect harmony with one another, synchronized, balanced and free.

Now you can create fully whatever it is that you want. Now you can make of yourself what you want, for it is only that wanting that drives this experience, and when you tire of it and you eventually will, the binds will be lifted and graduation will take place. You will travel into the new realities you are creating. The one being is evolving together, a family of ourselves.

This channel wonders if all lives tell stories of the great change that is coming, if all times and places speak of a great change, for in all of creation we are in perpetual change. Shifting into one form of consciousness to another. Perhaps even the sleep state where deep unconsciousness lies deeply veiled. Many of you wish to lift the veil completely to reveal the the unconscious mind like a stripper would down to the knickers instead of letting the answers bloom for you like a flower in the summer sun.

Remember things like grace, elegance, beauty, for they guide you just as pleasure, comfort and peace do.
Know that you are all that is and remind yourself of it often. Humble yourself that ALL THAT IS is YOU. Let go of fear and doubt and worry for they are lousy servants, and hire trust, honesty and kindness instead. If we were to reveal all the mystery lying beyond the veil, then what would be the point of incarnating at all? This is the playground of spiritual evolution. Embrace the level you are at and allow yourself to expand daily.

Soak in the sun, imagine yourselves bathed in light of love, peace, well being and joy. Feel the joy as it fills your inner bodies with healing, loving light. Imagine yourself like a solar panel charging the batteries, if you will. And imagine a little meter that shows you that it is filling and filling and when you reach full, allow yourselves to hold that feeling. Pay attention to how you feel, the sensations.
Feel how you can shine now brightly once you decide to switch yourself on. You are always plugged into the energy you are like an auto charged wireless device.

You can imagine that the tank is filled instantly if you wish. Some people might like the extra time to get acquainted with the feelings, like dipping their toes in the water. Some of us long time swimmers think it best to just jump in and enjoy. The choice is yours.

Hope this helps you on your journey this day, if it did please comment. You are loved beyond imagination, comprehension or explanation. Namaste.

BrandyRox and friends

choice

So you see you have the choice as to how you weild your truth. How you learn or teach, how you create or destroy. They are both within you and you have the power of the will to make it so.

Decisions as far as who you are or what you are here to do lie within for all the answers dwell within.

The light that shines within is the guiding force, like a lighthouse on the shore.

On the Truth

What is Truth?

What does it mean to "tell the truth"?

Honesty is a knowingness, firmament beneath your feet. It is a 'ringing' in the heart. It is a feeling of absoluteness and unwavering standing on its own, unabated.

Truth and honesty are inherently linked. Truth being the Subject while honesty is more the context. You know truth, you speak with honesty. There is no need to hide beneath layers or symbols, no need for worry or misunderstanding. For any wrinkle can be easily smoothed out with a gentle hand and warm compress.

We speak about truth because it is important that we are able to find this within ourselves. It is a thick skin of sorts in that you build up the trust within yourself so that even when the storm may come to rattle you, that pillar of truth and knowingness within tethers you anywhere.

There is a place inside your heart so massive, so solid that nothing will ever rock it. We can never just tell you, you must find your own way. This is key. No one can tell you what is Truth for you. No one. Only you. You are.

So many people want to tell you and think they have all the answers. Perhaps they do and it is the truth for them but it doesn't have to be the truth for you. To thine self be true.

It is time that we not fear our own truth or rest upon her laurels, but stand with her openly and proud for we have found our strength again, we have found ourselves at the root of it, we have faced the ugly thing in the eye and seen it for what it truly is, our center. So let whatever it is that comes from your center shine. Let it radiate from within.

Once you have accepted the light of truth into your life, the falsities begin to peel away and the colors of the world can be seen with new eyes; with clarity. You can begin to pull and peek and poke around the world with a renewed sense of joy and love.

Some people have tried very hard to create truths for themselves, some have been more or less successful. Some may ignore their truth entirely and rely on the word or deeds of others to find their truth.

I imagine my truth to be a great lion. It stands to my side ready to stamp out lies, armed with ferocity and grace. The lion is strong minded and centered. It can call upon the pack for assistance but also relishes in conquering its prey solo. Truth is mighty and strong, an able match for any opponent.

There must be the balance of grace and delicate use of the lions force. Love being the ultimate equalizer allows the adept to use the power and fierce nature of the lion with the love and unity of all things and one of the first great truths of all creation.

I Am

Great power and what you do with it

those of you who have great power, and there are many of you who do, we might remind you that that which you dole out, so you can expect to receive. There are some among you who choose to dole out hatred and so much hatred is sent to you and you use that hatred to fuel even more hatred until it has consumes you. There are some among you who choose to dole out worry as if the world wants not only to deal with its own problems, it must now carry yours as well, or your worry of them. There are even some still who dole out punishment, or directives or commands to suit their whims, so to will they be punished directed and commanded.

Some however, have found within themselves the will to love instead. To dole this vibration out into the world more than any other. Can you guess what will happen to them?

And when the world cycles back the full weight of the love they have been doling out into the world, hold tight, because even those who are reaping the lower vibrations will feel the wake of this love. It will shake every being in all of creation for that love will be so great it will consume us all.

Love and light
and the Power to do what is right.

Past Life After after thoughts

Upon thinking about the information now after thinking about a little more I feel inclined to include more information that is coming through now.

When I think of the first life information it makes some sense to me in that and this might sound really ridiculous, but I was a gynormous Buffy The Vampire Slayer fan in my late teen early twenty years, my specific fascination being with the Spike character, to such degree it propelled me into the graphic arts to compete with other nerdy Spiketts making tribute banners and avatars for one another in creative appreciation for the show we all loved to love. The idea of literally drinking blood with this body is disgusting, but when imagining another beings desire to do that, I am not disgusted, simply intrigued but more sympathetic, what a painful thing it would be for someone who felt the connection to all that is yet is physically compelled to take the life of another. Inner turmoil and conflict that could last lifetimes. I am so sad just thinking about it now. strange and irrational huh, none the less, it is what comes out.

To the crippled ear life I can say that I have drawn a picture of that event but when I went to write the blog twice I miss typed the story my grandfather told me, the story I included in my original blog, but the miss type was that the man crippled ear cut his own ear off in defense or defiance, neither of which to my logical mind makes any sense. So I decided to include the story I had heard repeatedly growing up instead.

To the third life I can say that This woman was bathes in light and seems as if she had fallen a great distance. I felt when the information was being pulled through that she was very light and very bright and to the right if that makes any sense.

She was very certainly a she though any man would give her their ear in an instant for she was so clear as a bell, so resonant that any being would fancy a chat with her. Wise, eager to help. I perceive her environment as bright light, columns and streams of it. You can sort of jump into currents to travel to places, between places, there are many paths of light that have been worn over time from others who have traveled. You know how to get there you just must let yourself see it in your minds eye. She see the currents are pulling more people in a certain direction.

This is her job, to monitor the flow of some of these channels. important work. difficult and sometimes very, there is no word, it is across between stern and sad and compassionate and decisive and discernment. In other words, to play the balance of power verses guidance, she must take a myriad of variables into consideration. I can imagine her from a very high perspective watching currents of colored light flowing over a massive circuit board the size of 10 lane freeways criss crossing in every direction.

SUDDENLY IT RAINS. And I am reminded of my reoccurring dream i had when I was a kid.
It was of three images repeating like flashing one after the other:

one was a white house with flowers in the front yard, purple and blue ones, but it wasn't a happy house but it sure looked happy enough on the outside. I only ever could see it from the street, never from the inside only this lame cleche of a house.

Second image is of enormous, very powerful metal pistons, a whole set of them. They are pounding the rhythms fiercely and mechanically, cold hard, empty and persistent.

The third one I don't recall exactly only that I know there were three. The only thing I can guess is that it had to do with numbers because I have a vivid memory of going into the kitchen as a young child and seeing large sesame street like numbers, thick colorful numbers as real as day dancing on the cabinets and they scared the living daylights out of me.

I think her job might be a duty/honor/privilege to guard the flow. She takes it very seriously. I also have this image when I think of her that there is an eye very high on the wall of eyes and hers is near the top with her friends around her governing together. We are about to turn our collective gaze in a new direction and she and they will be leading/coordinating/guiding/guarding it isn't like we are the boss but we are the guardians. we guard.

She saw the flare of energy rising up on earth. Things were shifting. From her perspective all her lives past were incorporated fully so she could easily recall any pic of useful data at any second, the memories of her past experiences with nuclear power and explosions so when earth people had that power and the interest in that planet went up she turned her attention like the others upon her sphere.
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Well that is what I was got but then got distracted by the world her on earth again.. Ill talk to you soon